Still here!

I haven't had the inclination to post since my last one. Life has been very up and down, but am pleased to be riding on an UP wave at the moment!!

I have spent a bit of time thinking about life in general, and spent a day by myself at a town along the coat to try to get my head around things. Since doing that I have been feeling so much better, and so much happier with life. I am moving forward, and although I still feel down when I think about Andrew sometimes, on the whole I am a lot better.

I have been actively losing weight, and have lost 7.5kg since the beginning of March. Its not HEAPS, but its a good start,a nd I am determined to drop a lot more weight over the next 18 months. I'm really pissed I let myself become so big, but the main thing is I'm doing something about it now. I joined a gym, and have a personal trainer, so I am really getting some good exercise and strength training in. I still walk 2 times a week, and the most amazing thing was this week I needed to go for a walk on Monday cause I hadn't been for 4 days. It wasn't a 'i want' to go, it was a 'my body needs' to go for a walk... and thats a fantastic way to feel! its so good to be getting active again, and actually starting to feel good about myself!!

And the other fun and exciting thing I have been doing is playing around with Intenet dating with Oasis Active. I have been having a ball!! I have been talking to lots of guys, and have physically met one of them, and am planning to meet up with him again this weekend. And I have another one that is keen to meet up with me next week. So this has been a fantastic distraction, and a way to talk to lots of different men without having to go out and do the pub thing, or trying to work up the courage to talk to people in social settings.

And finally I have been doing some things on my own, and have been learning to enjoy my own company. If you can't do that, then I think a person has problems. I am going away to Renmark this weekend, and am going to go up in a hot air balloon weather permitting. And I'm doing this on my own. Admittedly I'm meeeting up with someone on the sat night to enjoy the festivities, but Sunday morning is my time to enjoy life, and do the things I want to do. And I'm finally going to meet up with Froggy on Sunday which I am really looking forward to!!

So all in all things are going OK in the world of Leanne. Feeling much happier, and more alive than what I have for a few years. And things can only get better from now on!!