Happy new year & all the jazz

end of 2009 is probably a good thing. I haven't had the greatest year, but it certainly hasn't been the worst year either (that was 2008).

I haven't consciously made any new year resolutions, but I am planning to get back on the weight loss wagon. My walking is increasing week by week, and I'm feeling much better for it. I've been walking for 50mins to an hour at a time 3 to 4 times a week, and even getting up early on my holidays to get in some walking before the hot days settle in. Once I'm back at work, then the food side of things will fall into place. I have a goal to reach by my birthday, and will be very disappointed if I don't achieve it.

Tonight will be a quiet one. Its 41 degrees here today, and I hate hate hate hot weather. I wish so hard it was winter again. So I'll be sheltering under the airconditioner, and probably watching telly all night....this suits me just fine.

wishing you all a Happy new Year, and that 2010 brings you much happiness, and joy.

time for an update

So its been a while since I have been blogging. Reading plenty of blogs, but not inspired to write much lately. Had a great time in Melb with my friend Becy, and we went to the aquarium, and on the puffing billy (old steam train), and generally had a nice time going out for lunches and dinner and catching up on gossip!!

Me and Bec on the Puffing Billy

Puffing Billy

A romantic shot of Bec and her fella

King Penguin at the Melbourne aquarium

Another King Penguin - they were so cute!

View of the MCG (Melbourne cricket ground) from Bec's rooftop deck

Nightime view from the rooftop deck

As much as I'm not keen on Melb as a city, I had a great time with Bec, and did heaps of walking and shopping!! Spent too much money, but got some really nice shoes and a few clothes. All in all a great weekend.

I also met my favourite author in Nov - Diana Gabaldon. She did a talk at a library in Mount Barker and my sister and I went along. We both really enjoyed her talking about her life and how she became a writer, and how the Outlander series began. It was a great night, and something I will always remember. I'm about 100 pages from finishing the new book she released in September, and then we have to wait for another 3 years for the next one!!!

Diana Gabaldon talking about how she writes the Outlander series

Me and Diana - and I got my book signed!!

All in all it was a good November. I got most of my Chrisco hamper - just waiting on one more thing, and have 2 freezers full of food. I just need to prepare it all in a healthy manner!!

I have started walking again, and my achillies seems to be holding up OK. I'm trying to do 2 or 3 walks a week of about 45min to 1 hour, and so far am feeling much better for it. Feeling very very unfit, but otherwise, doing OK. just have to get through Christmas now, and admittedly, I don't have much Christmas cheer this year...just can't be bothered really - and I guess if i had kids it would be a bit different....but since I don't I'll stick to being the Christmas grouch!!!

Looking forward to November!!

Next month has lots going on, and I'm looking forward to it so much!!

On the 10th November, my sister and I are going to a meet and greet with one of my favourite authors, Diana Gabaldon. Her latest book was released at the end of September, and we have been waiting for it for so long!!! Diana writes a series about a woman who goes back in time to the Scottish Highlands in the mid 1700's, and gets stuck there for a few years, and ends up marrying a scotsman.... the 7 books take us on journey's through time, through war, over land and over sea, to the West Indies, and finally to America.... and the new book sees them head back to Scotland. I'm about 120 pages into the new book, An Echo in the Bone, and am really enjoying it.

On the 12th of November I'm off to Melbourne for 4 days to visit my best friend. Andrew is staying at home, so it will be nice to have a weekend away on my own...well with my best mate!! I think we'll have a nice girlie weekend, and it will be some nice to spend a few days with her. This is the friend that went to Ireland for 2.5 years, and has only come back this year, and then headed to Melbourne to live. Looking forward to my holiday so much!!!

Then on the 19th november, Andrew, myself, and a friend of mine are off to see Nickelback at the Adelaide entertainment centre. We saw them a few years ago, and they put on the best show with lots of Pryotechnics...so we are looking forward to that so much!!

And finally Chrisco arrives on the 25th November!!. I'm taking that day off work, so I can be home when they drop it off. I just have to do a freezer clean out between now and then!! I have heaps of meat and frozen vegies coming, so I will need all the room I can get!!

PHHHEEEWWWWW!!! It might not seem much, but for me, this is a fairly busy month. We're also going to see the truck racing on the 1st of November... I'm such a rev head!!!!

Christmas is HOW far away?

So I decided to go shopping on Saturday at the local complex, and wandered in through Myers.... being that I was sick and all I wasn't really paying much attention until suddenly I was overcome by Christmas carols. What the hell I thought, its only September!! Low and behold there were christmas trees and ornaments and twinkling lights for as for as the eye could see! I was in a state of disbelief. It wasn't even the end of September (26th), and already the decorations were up and about, and reminding me that the year is almost over AGAIN!!!!!

I quickly hurried through the trees and ran up the escalators in order to get away from the reminder that another year was slowly coming to a close. Off I went shopping, tried on a beautiful $300 dress, but couldn't justify the cost for just one night. So ended up with an on sale (reduced by $70) dress for a grand total of $80, and then a few other bits and pieces all from Myers. Myers have a great 'larger' woman section, and it has recently expended its range, so I think I tried on about 15 different things, and walked away with about 5. Not bad for someone who hates shopping!! The dress is for a black tie dinner I'm going to next week, so I should look nice.

Leaving Myers and heading into the mall I found another shop that catered for the 'larger' woman and ended up with a pair of pants, so all in all it was a good shopping trip for clothes. I really only intended to look at dresses, and was supposed to just buy paint, but I kinda got carried away (which does NOT happen often). My motto these days is 'if it fits well, then buy it!'

So off I wandered to Target, and guess what was in their store.... MORE christmas decorations. What is the shopping world coming to!! Give it a few years and they won't bother putting the stuff away... might as well leave it out for the whole year.

I bought my paints and headed off home. Misson accomplished, paints bought, dress bought, and Christmas decorations left behind in the shops where they belong. I'll think about it again around the 20th of December.... when Christmas will really be 'just around the corner!!'

Back again

so since my last post I've done the Pink concert, the jimmy barnes concert, and been to Melbourne! Pink was good, but not fantastic cause she didn't do part of her show and that was disappointing. Jimmy was great... I was deaf for 4 days afterwards, but loved hte concert that went for 2.5 hours. Melb was fun, Andrew and I had a good weekend, and enjoyed going to Etihad stadium for the Crows v Carlton game. We did a tour of the MCG as well which was surprisingly really good. Caught up with a friend and ate lots food.

Speaking of food, I'm still fat, and not much is happening with the diet thing. I've had some blood tests taken this week to make sure I'm generally in good health, and get the results back next week. I also have an appointment with an ENT in a few weeks. My nose has been playing up a lot lately and I have concerns that there is something wrong. Hopefully it is just blocked, and needs to be drained or something.

Andrew and I nearly broke up, but have decided to stay together for now. We had the first really honest open discussion that I can remember, and it was so refreshing to finally have him talk!! I just hope it happens more often.

Work sucks arse, and I'm really really close to quitting. I've done my resume, and plan to start applying for jobs in the next week or so. its probably not the nest time to be moving jobs, but I'm so unhappy most of the time. I guess I'll see what happens when the bosses wife goes on holiday. If things manage to settle down I might reconsider my options..... but I'm getting too unhappy.

Not much else is going on. Looking forward to day light savings so I can start doing some more walking... not too long to go now!!

still here!!

No, I haven't disappeared... just not blogging for a while. Weight wise things are not good. Getting bigger and bigger, and just can't control it.... (as I sit here eating a tim tam!!). Well maybe its not wanting to control it cause I enjoy yummy bad food too much!! Anyways, I'll get it together soon.

Andrew's little laser cracked its head 2 weeks ago, so we have been car shopping. He's ended up with a big fat loan, but a very nice VZ holden commodore. I'm very pleased wiht it, and am glad to see him in something a bit safer. It might chew a bit more petrol, but its a much better car.

Work is busy, but I'm doing OK. Not feeling as crap as what I did in my last entry. I'm off to see PINK on Monday at the entertainment centre and am looking forward to it so so much!! Then off to see Jimmy Barnes on the 15th and then off to Melbourne at the end of the month for the weekend to go to the footy. I've treated us to a fancy hotel and hope to have a really nice weekend.... I need the break for at least a day away from work.

Aside form the eating stuff, things are Ok at the moment. I might not be writing much here, but am certainly reading everyones!! Its good to be feeling a bit more cheery.

MIA

Yep, have been missing in action for a while - life is not going so great - have not really wanted to blog about it.

Feeling sad and depressed does not make for good reading.

Food has been good this week - for a change!! Have been too busy to eat at times, and am starting to realise that eating does not not make me feel better, so I just don't do it as much now - there is not a lot that really satisfies the WANT I have - so I think the WANT is something different - I want to feel better and happier, but food is not the answer to that....And I think this is finally a good realisation to have.

Anyhoo, I hope things will lighten up soon.

Faking It??

So, Joanne suggested that I fake the weight loss. Pretend my head is in the right space, and try to sort something out. So I have been thinking about this, and subconsiously I think I have been doing it!! I have had a pretty good food week, even though I have been under lots of stress at work, and things aren't so great at home. Today I will be having a treat though.... I need one comfort re-feed!!

Work has been hard this week, and have definately not wanted to be here. I can't seem to do anything right, and all I want to do is stay home and curl up in bed. Hopefully having the weekend away will make me feel better, and be more refreshed on Monday. I had a doorway put into my office this week, and there is a thin film of concrete dust all over my desk. every time I grab something I haven't touched for a few days, I get a lovely layer of grime on me!! I get to move offices next week, so am looking forward to that...and being able to clean everything on my desk.

I'm going to the Body, Mind and Psychic Fair on Saturday with a couple of my friends which I am looking forward to. Not necessarily the fair, but looking forward to being with my friends.

Its bloody cold here now, and I'm loving it!!! I don't Like summer, so its great to finally be in winter. Time to rug up and keep toasty warm. I just wish we had a combustion heater at home though!!
Anyhoo, have a good weekend, I am certainly looking forward to it!!!

Another year older!

So 33 yesterday...getting older!! Had a great day as I spent my morning at a course on Stategic Marketing, and then the afternoon was spent at work, doing work, but also having fun with my Office Manager. I got some lovely flowers from one of my staff, and a few cards.

Andrew gave me a beautiful white gold bracelet which I really love. It is simple, but suits me well. He also got me a book, and a book mark.

We went out to dinner with my parents last night which was lovely, but a little bit dampened by mum and dad telling me that mum has been having twitches at night time in her leg, and can sometimes be a whole body twitch like she is having a fit. So they are off to have an MRI scan in June to see if her brain tumor is growing again, and if she needs another dose of radiotherapy. She made a comment last night that she'll never be like she used to be - but I said to her, at least you are here, and thats the main thing.

Saturday night we are going our with my best friends for dinner at a Chinese restaurant. Not the aussie sweet and sour pork chinese, but proper chinese sichaun food. Looking forward to it so much!!

Weight wise - nothing positive is happening there. I have been hovering at the same weight for about 5months, so I guess thats better than going up. Cancelled my WW unlimited membership as it was a waste of money as I was doing nothing with it. My head is not in the right space.... its a bit of a cop out, but its the truth.

So glad its Thursday... and not long till the weekend. We're off to the footy aswell on Saturday, those bloody Crows better win, I'm sick of going to losing matches all the time. Lucky the tickets are for free!!

Achilles Tendonopathy

Bigs words that just means I have tendonitis in my achilles. I have to endure quite a few months of physio in order to try to settle the tendon and try to strengthen it. So I can only walk for about 20mins at the moment becuase thats when it starts to hurt, and I will have to try a different exercise like cycling or swimming.

So not the best news, but not the worst news either. I can cope with tendonitis....as much as it hurts at the moment.

Mothers day on Sunday - so happy mothers day to those mum's who read my blog!! Andrew and I are going to the footy on Sunday and then down to visit my mum. We are having Andrew's mum over for Sushi on Saturday night - so I have a lot of prep work to do on Sat arvo, and lots of shopping tonight at the Central Markets.

My menu will be as follows:
raw salmon with avocado & mayo
Eel with cucumber, avocado & mayo
Teriaki Chicken with avocado, sundried tomatoes, mayo
Teriaki chicken with cucumber, lettuce, shallots & Mayo (inside out roll)
Crab stick with Avocado, cucumber & mayo
Asparagus with lettuce,capsicum & mayo
Prawns with avocado, cucumber & mayo
tinned tuna with chilli & mayo

Dessert
Sticky date pudding with icecream

I think Andrew's mum will like all of that!! I know I am looking foward to it all. I haven't made sushi for about 18months, so hopefully I will be able to still do it!!

Thank god it Friday - hanging out for the day to be over....

Can't get into the swing of it all

My diet has gone to hell.. Since the unfortunate weigh in a few weeks ago, I have lost the plot...and it all just comes down to will power. The other thing I find hard at the moment is having so much going on. Work is quite stressful, and so I turn to yummy food to make me feel better...its a vicious cycle, and I can't seem to break it. You would have thought that not being able to get jeans to fit on the weekend would have been a good way to kick myself in the bum, but that hasn't seemed to have happened.

I've also got issues happening with headaches, and also with my achillies. I've been going to the headache clinic over the past week to try to get rid of my headaches. At the moment its more pain than relief, but I think in about a week or so I should really start to feel better, and get a new pillow to help with sleeping at night.
My Achillies is another matter...and thats whats stopping me from walking at the moment. I can only walk from about 20min and then I'm in pain. Its has a lump on it, an I'm hoping that its just inflamation. Off to see a sports doctor this week and we'll see whats happening.
And to top evrything off I had my root canal finished 2 weeks agao, and I am in a heaps of pain today. I can't even eat at the moment, so have to see if I can fit in a dentist appointment today.
I am a sad and sorry mess!!

I'm cancelling my WW unlimited as its costing heaps, but I'm not doing anything with it. In Myers in Adelaide they do a 1 on 1 consultation, but its expensive, and the reality is I just need to do it myself - no point paying if you can't get your head in the right space. . I just can't seem to get on board wlike I used to. When I smoked it was easy to lose weight. You felt like something to eat so you had a smoke and all was good...now I'm not smoking I just eat....and so the cycle continues.

Otherwise life is pretty boring at the moment. Always busy at work, and home life is OK. Not going to go back to uni for a while, I don't have the mental toughness for it right now. I just want all my ailments to get better so that I can feel better, and get moving again. I miss walking, and want to be able to do those 8km walks again. Trying not to feel to down, but sometimes I just get overwhelmed by it all.

Finally back to blogging

Talk about being slack!! But I'm back now... back from China, and hopefully back from that terrible headspace I was in a few weeks a go.

China was great.... for those who want piccy's, you can check them out on Facebook. Here are 2 of my favourites.

It was busy and I got a nasty cold half way through the trip - so felt like shit for the last 2 working days and for my free shopping day. The plane home was BAD...economy with a cold, crying babies, and another one kicking me.... NOT HAPPY.

But I am feeling much better now. I didn't do a great deal of shopping while I was over there, just a few things. A pure Cashmere shawl, a mahjong set for my mum, some tea, and a gorgeous tea set. I also got a jade bracelet, which is just gorgeous.

The only down side of the past 3 weeks was the terrible weight gain. I weigh more now than when I joined Weight Watchers.... so BAD. And my weigh in was crap tonight, as there wasn't a weigher, and the 1 member of the meeting who I really don't like decided that she would offer to help and weigh people..... I was so embaressed and pissed off that she got to see my weight. I wouldn't have thought that the leader would be allowed to let just anyone weigh people - especially when they don't know what they are doing. I ended up taking my book and working out myself what my figures were. NOT impressed, and actually complained to WW about it. I think I have the right to be able to choose what members know my weight and which ones don't.

Anyways I ate my annoyance tonight, which just proves I have an emotional eating issue.... SO, tomorrow I will get back on the wagon and get rid of this weight. I felt so fat in China. It was horrible to be surrounded by Asian skinny people!! And no chance of finding any clothes.... just so depressing. I got stared at a lot because of me height and red hair, and I'm sure cause of how huge I am.

But I ate well until I got home from WW...and I even went for a walk. I will sort this all out. I have to soon, cause I just feel yuck!!

Where is my head at???

I tell ya what - it certainly isn't in the right spcae for losing weight!! And I'm worried I'm never going to get back to that place. You'd think trying on a size 20 shirt and have it be too tight in the arms would be a sign wouldn't you... NOPE.

I am really quite annoyed with myself in numerous ways. I can't believe the things I ate over the weekend. I am NOT going to WW this week, I couldn't handle the huge gain. I'll be going back after I get back from China.

And no matter how hard I tell myslef to get my shit together it just doesn't seem to be happening. I even piked on a friend for a walk yesterday....mostly cause we had to clean out the pond though so I could watch the car racing in the arvo.

I have to work out why I keep sabotaging myself...I'm not sure why I do it, and mostly how to fix it. Starting to get really really down about things, but not sure how to control it. I LOVE FOOD, and have so much trouble trying to stop the bad stuff from entering my mouth.

I get back from China on the 5th of April... and I WILL get back on track and kick some arse with this weight loss things, cause if I don't start doing it now, then winter will settle in, and there will be no chance of any exercise. I must stop complaining, and just get on with it.....

50 points for dinner... bout that!!!

Yesterday was Andrew's birthday, so I took him out for dinner. I chose a healthy main mean - grilled squid. Then I looked at the entree's and suggested to Andrew that we share one.... I should have had a GOOD look at what was on the platter first. Deep fired onion rings, deep fried chicken wings, deep fried potato skins, deep fried prawns, and some chicken breast pieces. And you know what.... STUPID me ate almost everything...so 50 points later, my healthy main meal was destroyed by the entree.

OH WELL... back on track today. Must admit it was very yummy, but not going to have it ever again. Tonight is takeaway Thai with the girls, but that will be easy, a pork stir fry and rice - about 8 points or so.

Looking forward to a night in with the girls tonight ...Andrewq is allowed to have dinner with us, and then he is banished to the playstation room for the rest of the night - he is cool with that though.

And I'm SAD i'm not going to the car racing tomorrow. I thought I'd cope with it... but the reality is I want to go so bad!!!!! But the TV and I will be friends this weekend, and I can pretend I'm there.

+0.2

So my gain wasn't as bad as I thought it might be. +0.2 is manageable. Next week I'm going to kick arse!!!

Back on track today, although I find Wed a challenge cause work buys lunch and I can only have so many healthy choices... But I'll make do with it.

I'll try to get a walk into over the next few days, but its not looking good so far - too busy for the next few days....off to see an acrobatic circus at the fringe tonight, so am looking forward to that. Tomorrow is Andrew's birthday, and Friday I have the girls coming over for a girly night.

This weekend will mostly be spent plonked in front of the TV for the V8's...looking forward to that so much - Andrew has his cricket semi final, but I'm not going ... I haven't been all season so why change things now! Then the weekend after I'm off to China!! I'd better go do some clothes shopping on Saturday morning I think.

SLACKER!!!

I've be a bit slack on the blog front lately... work has been flat out, andwhen I get home - the last thing I want to look at is a computer.

Last Tuesday at WW I had a Stay the same. This week will more than likely be a gain. We had Andrew's b'day BBQ on Saturday and I wasn't particularly healthy in my food choices! And yesterday we had left overs... too much creamy pasta salad for me.

So, I'm not looking forward to tomorrow night at all. I'll go, becuase if I don't, I know it will be the end of me.

I spent most of yesterday lazing around inside and reading my book. A bit hung over... which is very unusual for me. We also got a turtle yesterday for our fountain/pond in the back yard. He spent most of the day hiding... and hopefully he survived the night - he has spent all his years in a small fish bowl, and now he has a large pnd to swim around in a fish to chase.... I hope he settles in OK.

Another busy week, and this weekend is the V8 racing in Adelaide, the Clipsal 500!! Unfortunatley due to circumstances I'm not going this year.... but will be spending most of my weekend glued to the TV!!! GO HOLDENS!! Have a good week... will report inWednesday with my hideous gain.

Small loss & Glad its Friday

I have spent the past 2 days at training... so have not been online much. Certainly not wanting to be at work today though - not sure why...

I lost 500g this week, total of 2.8kg in 3 weeks. Considering the crap food weekend last week, I am happy with that loss. Back on track pretty well this week, so hopefully should have a loss of about the same amount.

Not much else going on... life is busy, and am not really in the mood to be at work. Hopefully I'll be out of here by 3.30.

Looking forward to the long weekend - not doing too much at all, and being a bit lazy. I think I'm going to hate it when uni starts again, no more laziness allowed!!

OMG!!!! So excited!!!

My boss has decided to take me to China at the end of March for work!! I have NEVER been overseas before...not even to kangaroo island or to Tasmania! I am so fricken excited at the moment!!!

I'm still a bit shocked it has happened so quickly, but if he wants me to go, then so be it. And we get a free day in Hong Kong and also a free day in Shanghai. Not sure how I'll cope hanging out with the boss and his wife for a week, but I think my excitement and enthusiasm will be enough to hold me over!!

YAY for me!! And its all expenses paid.... Yeah!! Doing a happy dance right now!!!

Stupid stupid

So tonight I lost 600g, making a total loss of 2.3kg.

THEN stupid stupid me decided to have a fucking pig out. I am so annoyed with myself.

Tomorrow I will be back on track. I am determined to lose at least 1kg next week. I have to.

4 walks over the next week, and staying on points.

MUST BEHAVE!!!!!!!!!

Wine Tasting

Sunday was spent travelling around the Barossa Valley wine tasting with my best mate, her Irish boyfriend, and her German friend. We had a great day!! We made it to 5 wineries throughout the day, and had an OK lunch in Tanunda. It was great to catch up with my mate who has been overseas for 2.5 years, and also her German friend Uli was really nice and easy to get along with. We went to my favourite winery Rockfords, and also to Penfolds, and Jacobs Creek. We also went to 2 smaller wineries aswell which were a lot more inviting and friendly.

It was a long day, but very enjoyable. I did n't do a lot of tasting because I was the designated driver... but it was still fun.

It was my nephew's 11th Birthday on Saturday so I went for coffee and cake... probably had a bit too much cake, but its TTOM so that would explain the sweet cravings I had Sat and Sunday nights. Hav yucky cramps today, so hopefully they will disappear soon.

All in all a good weekend!!! Back for another week of work, and they looking forward to the weekend again.

Struggled yesterday

Yesterday was not a good day. Between work and the boy, it was a bad day. Comfort eating was playing riot with my head, but the worst damge I did outside of my points were, 1 x sushi roll, 50g snakata's, and 2 x Paradise lites chock bickies. Really not too bad, but still a points blow out.

Still feeling pretty sad and angry today. Having to get to work at 6am kills me, and then I have to go to a function tonight which I am not loking forward to for 5 to 7. Thank god tomorrow is Saturday and I can sleep in.

off to celebrate my nephew's 11th Birthday tomorrow afternoon, and then out to do some winery visiting on Sunday with my best friend who is back from overseas. So kinda looking forward to all that.

Really.... all I want to do is crawl in a hole and not come out for a few weeks!! Not the best attitude to have, but thats the way I feel. Hopefully having a good weekend will make me feel better.

YAY!! A loss

Week 1 back on WW was a success. I lost 1.7kg. I was worried I had lost nothing, but in the end I did really well. So, I can do it!! I just need to be motivated and positive.

I like my meeting, but there is a husband & wife couple there, and they know the leader from previous meeting, and they like to dominate the meetings, and the leader entertains it. It is a bit annoying. last night we got put into groups to do an exercise, and I was asked a question by a lady in our group, and as I was trying to answer I got blatently cut off by the wife! I was not impressed, and if anything it cause me to just shut my mouth rather than say anything.

I was annoyed, and as it is I don't generally say much at meetings, and finally when I do I get cut off or talked over (this happened when the leader was asking me about my weight loss, and how my week went in front of the other members). Maybe its just me.... I guess I had an instant dislike to them last week becasue they dominated the leader, and I didn't get a chance to really talk to her.... Disappointed is the best way to describe it.

I go to meetings for a bit of support, and last night it just felt like I didn't get it.

OK, RANT over. I lost 1.7kg!! Time to be happy!!!

I found this at Emharvie's blog, and couldn't resist doing it... I dread to think what the total will be at the end.

Supposedly, if you've seen over 85 films, you have no life. There are 239 films on this list. Mark the ones you've seen. Copy this list, go to your own blog and paste.

(x) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( ) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
(x) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
Total: 7

(x) The Princess Bride
( ) AnchorMan
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
() Anger Management
(x ) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
( ) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total: 7
Running total: 14

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
(x) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
() American Pie 2
() American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total: 5
Running total: 19

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Harry Potter 5
(x) Resident Evil 1
(x) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
( ) The Village
() Lilo & Stitch
Total: 8
Running total: 27

(x) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
( ) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
( ) White Chicks
( ) Butterfly Effect
() 13 Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
( ) Robots
Total: 5
Running total: 32

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(x) Universal Soldier
( ) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
() Along Came Polly
(x) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
() Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt
( ) KING KONG
Total: 6
Running total: 38

( ) A Cinderella Story
() The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Final Destination 3
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
Total: 8
Running total: 46

( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
() Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
() I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
Total: 3
Running total: 49

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
( x) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
(x) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
Total 9
Running total: 58

(x) Bad Boys
(x) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Lucky Number Seven
(x) Ocean's Eleven
() Ocean's Twelve
() Bourne Identity
() Bourne Supremecy
( ) Lone Star
(x) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
() Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George
Total: 5
Running total: 63

(x) Independence Day
(x) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
(x) Christine
(x) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
() My Bosses Daughter
() Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
Total: 7
Running total: 70

( ) Best Bet
() How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
() She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
( ) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
() Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
( ) Forrest Gump
(x) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3
Total: 5
Running total: 75

(x) X-Men
( ) X-2
( ) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Sky High
(x) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
() Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
() The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
Total: 9
Running total: 84

( ) Swimfan
(x) Miracle on 34th street
( ) Old School
(x ) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
( ) Krippendorf's Tribe
( ) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
( ) Boogeyman
(x) The 40-year-old Virgin
Total: 3
Running total: 87

( ) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
( ) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
( ) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(x) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
(x) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
(x) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total: 3
Running total: 90

() Baseketball
(x) Hostel
( ) Waiting for Guffman
(x) House of 1000 Corpses
(x ) Devils Rejects
( ) Elf
( ) Highlander
( ) Mothman Prophecies
(x) American History X
( ) Three
Total: 4
Running total: 94

( ) The Jacket
( ) Kung Fu Hustle
( ) Shaolin Soccer
( ) Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
(x) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
(x ) Shaun Of the Dead
( ) Willard
Total: 4
Running total: 98

( ) High Tension
( ) Club Dread
( ) Hulk
(x) Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
() Chronicles Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) 28 days later
(x) Orgazmo
( ) Phantasm
(x) Waterworld
Total: 5
Running total: 103

(x) Kill Bill vol 1
(x) Kill Bill vol 2
( ) Mortal Kombat
(x) Wolf Creek
( ) Kingdom of Heaven
(x) The Hills Have Eyes
( ) I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
( ) The Last House on the Left
( ) Re-Animator
( ) Army of Darkness
Total: 4
Running total: 107

(x ) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
( ) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
( ) Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total: 5
Running total: 112

(x) The Matrix
(x) The Matrix Reloaded
(x) The Matrix Revolutions
( ) Animatrix
( ) Evil Dead
( ) Evil Dead 2
(x) Team America: World Police
(x ) Red Dragon
(x) Silence of the Lambs
( x) Hannibal
Total: 7
Running total: 119

Its official!! I have no life. I watched half of the movies on this list... and this doesn't even cover the ones aren't listed.... and some of them are my favourites....
Memoirs of a Geisha
It
Karate Kid
Pearl Harbour
Memphis Belle
Underworld 1,2,3
Twilight
Stand by Me
Hostel 2
Saw 3 & 4
Hellraiser 1,2,3,4,5
The Goonies
Snakes on a plane
Night at the museum...

Ok, that enough now. But At least this is over the past 20 years I've seen some of these!! So, thats not too bad really. Maybe 20 or 30 a year, and then some of them I watch numerous times!!! Anyways, a bit of fun for the afternoon!!

Early morning walk!

Just for fun I decided to go for a walk on this lovely Sunday morning. I woke up at 7:30, and instead of wallowing in bed like I usually do, I got up off my arse and went for a 35 min walk. And I decided that I would wear my heart rate monitor just to see what sort of rates I was gonna get.

I ended up with an average heart rate of 140bpm. Top rate was 168, and that was when I was walking up a smallish hill. I am still very very unfit... so if I can get 3 or 4 walks a week, hopefully in 2 months i will begin to feel much fitter.

Unfortunately I have a sore achillies...and I'm worried that it is going to get worse the more I walk. I am wondering if it is a bi-product of being fat....so We'll see once I start to drop some kilos. I have been seeing a chiro, but think I might have to go to see someone else if it doesn't start to get better soon.

I went out for lunch yesterday, and had an entree vegetarian pasta.... and I was so proud of myself as I usually have a full serve, and I was happily full once I was finished. I met up with my best friends aswell... one of them has been overseas for the past 2.5 years, so I was awesome to see her. And my other mate had a baby 6 months, so it was great to be able to see her as a mum in action, and have a cuddle of little Jasmine.

Valentines day was a non event for me and my partner. I'm not in a very good space with him at the moment.... and its really starting ot get me down. So being able to stick to WW through the next few weeks is gonna be tough, cause I also have to make some tough decisions.

ANYWAYS.... onyto a happy Sunday (I hope!!)

Travelling OK

So after Tuesday's nasty weigh in I have jumped onto the WW wagon quite well. Have stuck to my points for the past 2 days, and have not been losing the plot at night time. And last night I even though about eating something I shouldn't, but really thought about the consequences, and didn't end up doing it! YAY me!!

I'm feeling pretty positive about everything,... and the next thing is to just get through the weekend. I think it should be OK. I have managed to go for 2 walks... and realise how unfit I am, but at least I did it!!

Today will be a good day too... and looking forward to a sleep in tomorrow. I have been reading the twilight series of books and up to the last one with about 15 pages to go.... I am so hanging to finish it tonight!!! Can't wait to see what happens.

Anyhoo, have a good day, I will be cause its Friday!!!

Quick update

So, I was brave and faced the scales last night - and they were not nice to me. I have 40kg to lose to get to my healthy weight range. I am 20kg heavier thatn the first time I did WW. Too embarassed to tell my weight - or ashamed is more like it!

The meeting was at Ingle Farm (FYI Tina!!), and I quite like the leader. She is entertaining, and quirky, and seems nice. I will make the effort each week to stay at the meeting - there seems like there are some nice people there.

I am using the weight watchers E-tools, which is great for me as I spend most of my day in front of a computer, and half my night. My main issue is going to be my night time eating, and how to overcome it!! Lots of water I think.

I think I am finally in the right headspace to do this now. I've wallowed in fatness for too long, and its time to take control.

GOALS... (meeting was about this last night)
1. Stick to tracking for this whole week - reward will be a loss on the scales!
2. Lose 10kg by 20th May - reward - new tattoo (better start saving now!!)
3. Lose 40kg total, and do this over a period of 2.5 years - reward will be healthier new me!! And maybe some new clothes.

And I'm off and running!!!

Tonight is the night

Tonight I'm going to face the dreaded scales, and go to WW. I know I've been there before and done that, but the reality is I can't do it on my own, and if I'm going to pay someone so I can stand on some scales, then maybe that will give me the shove I need.

I am really really dreading this, but at least it will keep me honest, and all I have to do is work hard, can get my arse into gear, and the rest should follow along.

Its much cooler here now, and feeling much better about it all. Its terribly sad watching all the fires in Victoria.... those poor people.

Onto some work...I'll report in tomorrow...but unlikely to give you a number....too embarassing!!

I can see the end of the tunnel!!

25 lovely degrees on Sunday!!!! I can't wait. The fact that I have Andrew's family BBQ at our house doesn't really brighten the day, but still... 25 degrees!!!

In case you haven't figured, I am over this heat. I went to the movies on Sunday to get some cool time, and all I managed to do was end up in a cinema that didn't have working airconditioning!! How crap. By the end of the movie I was sweating.

Food has been average the past few days. The worst thing was a packet of burger rings. Other than that I have been good. Going to join WW on Tuesday next week. Its a new meeting where I have't been before, so hopefully will be a good one.

Off to the dentist tonight for a clean, but I have really sensitive teeth, so need to have an anesthetic...so will have a numb mouth for quite a while!!! I am learing to overcome my fear of the dentist... slowly.

Not coping!

I should be thankful that I work in an airconditioned office, and have an airconditioned home, but still I am not coping very well with this heat. And being fat doesn't help either. And my feet have swollen up.

I can't stand this heat....its really starting to do my head in. There are other things I should be thankful for...car airconditioning, iceblocks, shopping centres... But still I am whinging. And my plants are all dying...

5 days of 40+ weather is just wrong, and if this shit keeps up much longer I'm going end up being the bitch from hell. I do not like hot weather. And those bloody Victorians are complaining, well at least their temp goes down next week...us,not much relief in sight.

So, I'm not eating too much, and most of what I eat is healthy fruit and vegies. A little bit of a treat last night with a large cornflake cookie, but otherwise all is OK. Too fricken hot to eat too much. Got to work at 6:30am so I can leave at 3pm today. Don't give a shit what the boss says, cause its Friday,a nd work 9+ hours most days, so bugger him.

Ok, rant over. Hopefully I'll be in better spirits next week when is cools to 38 degrees.....

Slack!

I have been slack... no other reason for not blogging.

Australia Day long weekend was good - did some housework, gardening and a lot of reading. Mostly it was relaxing, and just the way I like it.

Today was a GREAT food day. I managed to hold off on a morning snack until 11am, and then had a small bite to eat at a function, and then a salad when I got back to work. Dinner was salad and cold meats. All in all was a good day.

I think I'll be back at WW next week. I just have to pluck up the courage. I saw some photos of myself from the work Xmas party, and fuck they were BAD. So its really time to do something now more than ever. It was one of those oh my god I'm so fat moments, and it was horrible.

work is busy this week, and finally got my payrise for my promotion to general manager. So looking forward to a bit extra cash. And its hump day tomorrow already!!!

And this 41 degree heat is BULLSHIT!!!! 42 today, 42 tomorrow, 41 for Thurs & fri. And if we're lucky 38 for Sat and Sun, and maybe 33 on Mon. I think summer has hit... and I knew that this would happen... summer is coming later and later each year.

Weekend Cruising

Yes, thats me sitting in the drivers seat of a Convertible corvette!! Andrew and I went for a cruise today to Hahndorf to visit a friend of mine, and loved every minute of our drive.

The Corvette belogs to my brother and we have been looking after it for 5 months in our shed. Yesterday he came over just to see if it would start, and when it did, he decided to clean it, register it, and then we went for a cruise!! The piccy below of my arm, is the result of 1 hour cruising around without sunscreen. Both of my arms look like this.




So, today I wore long sleeves, and lots of sunscreen and we had the best time. Max speed of 135km, but could have easily gone faster... IT WAS AWESOME!!!

What a great way to spend the weekend. this arvo will be spent relaxing, and then back to work tomorrow.

Food has been pretty good the past few days, so am happy all over!

Walking

I went for a 30min walk tonight - and it was an effort. I cannot believe how unfit and fat I have gotten....

BUT, at least I went for a walk, and plan to do it most evenings. My new Nike's are awesome, and they are great to walk in, so more incentive to get moving.

I have made a pact with a friend that we are going to do the 12km City to Bay in September. I'm going to need that long to get myself fit again. We only going to walk it, but at least its a plan.

Food was reasonable today. I made the mistake of buying some dried dates yesterday and have sat them on my desk at work, hence I have been munching out on them. And I should know better cause they are full of calories!!! I have had dessert every night, but it is a very small amount of low fat icecream, and fresh fruit. Has been really yummy.

So, I'm aiming for a really good day tomorrow.

Onward!

I decided the blog needed a facelift...so new layout. I'll probably add some more things later, but this is a good start.

Food was average today...I really need to pull my finger out, and I think the only way to do this is to find someone/place to be accountable. I think WW might be the go. I haven't been for about 18months, so it might be time, and it is free joining, but probbaly still $20 a visit.

The hard part for me is finding a good meeting. I don't want one with 50 women, but I don't want one that only has about 10. I'll have to suss out the ones near work I think.

I did gardening on the weekend, and have planted Cordylines.... I thnk they look really good. I'll take a piccy in the next few days. I just hope they survive the 41 degree day tomorrow!

New Shoes...and a 6am Start.

Last night I went for a walk with my friend, and much to my annoyance, I finally went through the bottom of my old Nike's. So off I went and spent a ridiculous amount of money, and got myself a new pair!! I Love my new Nike's... they are like walking on a cushion of air!!

I bought myself a pair of ASIC's back in September, and I really really hate them. They are such a flat shoe, and I really don't like walking in them. I will use them every now and then, or maybe even sell them cheap, but never again!!! I'm stick to my Nike cushion of air.

So at work at 6am for the cleaners to come in today... a bit of a hard thing to do to get up at 4.30am!!! But I get to leave at 4pm... which still makes for a 9.5hr day.

Food has been fairly good this week... a few items that were bad, but the rest was OK. Off to a BBQ tonight, so that will be interesting to see what we have there. I managed to get in 2 walks which I am happy with....but need to get in more!

And I managed to survive week 1 back at work. Its been a long week, and looking forward to a sleep in tomorrow, but its been a good week.

Anyways, onward with some work!!

Back to work tomorrow... but I have had good holidays. Ate too much food, so back on the healthy eating cycle tomorrow. Have painted my hallway (still need to post piccy's), done some gardening, and did a lot of blobbing about.

All in all holidays were relaxing. I survived Christmas, and had an OK new years.

Back to work tomorrow... kinda looking forward to it but in another way I'm not. Not looking forward to seeing certain people, and also finally getting into the nitty gritty of being a General Manager. I was supposed to work out my pay over the holidays, but I haven't even done that yet...I want more money, but the whole determining it myself is very daunting.

So, I'm really thinking about joing WW again. I don't feel like I can do it on my own, and I really want to lose lots... and I'm talking 30 kilos. I have stacked on so much weight since I stopped smoking, and I'm starting to hate who I am. BUT I love food......so find it so hard to control myself!! i guess I should just look in the mirrror everytime I want something bad, and then really think about whether I want it or not......

Anyways, up early tomorrow for a 7:30am start.... i kinda got used to the 10am sleep ins!!