OMG!!!! So excited!!!

My boss has decided to take me to China at the end of March for work!! I have NEVER been overseas before...not even to kangaroo island or to Tasmania! I am so fricken excited at the moment!!!

I'm still a bit shocked it has happened so quickly, but if he wants me to go, then so be it. And we get a free day in Hong Kong and also a free day in Shanghai. Not sure how I'll cope hanging out with the boss and his wife for a week, but I think my excitement and enthusiasm will be enough to hold me over!!

YAY for me!! And its all expenses paid.... Yeah!! Doing a happy dance right now!!!

Stupid stupid

So tonight I lost 600g, making a total loss of 2.3kg.

THEN stupid stupid me decided to have a fucking pig out. I am so annoyed with myself.

Tomorrow I will be back on track. I am determined to lose at least 1kg next week. I have to.

4 walks over the next week, and staying on points.

MUST BEHAVE!!!!!!!!!

Wine Tasting

Sunday was spent travelling around the Barossa Valley wine tasting with my best mate, her Irish boyfriend, and her German friend. We had a great day!! We made it to 5 wineries throughout the day, and had an OK lunch in Tanunda. It was great to catch up with my mate who has been overseas for 2.5 years, and also her German friend Uli was really nice and easy to get along with. We went to my favourite winery Rockfords, and also to Penfolds, and Jacobs Creek. We also went to 2 smaller wineries aswell which were a lot more inviting and friendly.

It was a long day, but very enjoyable. I did n't do a lot of tasting because I was the designated driver... but it was still fun.

It was my nephew's 11th Birthday on Saturday so I went for coffee and cake... probably had a bit too much cake, but its TTOM so that would explain the sweet cravings I had Sat and Sunday nights. Hav yucky cramps today, so hopefully they will disappear soon.

All in all a good weekend!!! Back for another week of work, and they looking forward to the weekend again.

Struggled yesterday

Yesterday was not a good day. Between work and the boy, it was a bad day. Comfort eating was playing riot with my head, but the worst damge I did outside of my points were, 1 x sushi roll, 50g snakata's, and 2 x Paradise lites chock bickies. Really not too bad, but still a points blow out.

Still feeling pretty sad and angry today. Having to get to work at 6am kills me, and then I have to go to a function tonight which I am not loking forward to for 5 to 7. Thank god tomorrow is Saturday and I can sleep in.

off to celebrate my nephew's 11th Birthday tomorrow afternoon, and then out to do some winery visiting on Sunday with my best friend who is back from overseas. So kinda looking forward to all that.

Really.... all I want to do is crawl in a hole and not come out for a few weeks!! Not the best attitude to have, but thats the way I feel. Hopefully having a good weekend will make me feel better.

YAY!! A loss

Week 1 back on WW was a success. I lost 1.7kg. I was worried I had lost nothing, but in the end I did really well. So, I can do it!! I just need to be motivated and positive.

I like my meeting, but there is a husband & wife couple there, and they know the leader from previous meeting, and they like to dominate the meetings, and the leader entertains it. It is a bit annoying. last night we got put into groups to do an exercise, and I was asked a question by a lady in our group, and as I was trying to answer I got blatently cut off by the wife! I was not impressed, and if anything it cause me to just shut my mouth rather than say anything.

I was annoyed, and as it is I don't generally say much at meetings, and finally when I do I get cut off or talked over (this happened when the leader was asking me about my weight loss, and how my week went in front of the other members). Maybe its just me.... I guess I had an instant dislike to them last week becasue they dominated the leader, and I didn't get a chance to really talk to her.... Disappointed is the best way to describe it.

I go to meetings for a bit of support, and last night it just felt like I didn't get it.

OK, RANT over. I lost 1.7kg!! Time to be happy!!!

I found this at Emharvie's blog, and couldn't resist doing it... I dread to think what the total will be at the end.

Supposedly, if you've seen over 85 films, you have no life. There are 239 films on this list. Mark the ones you've seen. Copy this list, go to your own blog and paste.

(x) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( ) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
(x) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
Total: 7

(x) The Princess Bride
( ) AnchorMan
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
() Anger Management
(x ) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
( ) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total: 7
Running total: 14

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
(x) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
() American Pie 2
() American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total: 5
Running total: 19

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Harry Potter 5
(x) Resident Evil 1
(x) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
( ) The Village
() Lilo & Stitch
Total: 8
Running total: 27

(x) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
( ) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
( ) White Chicks
( ) Butterfly Effect
() 13 Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
( ) Robots
Total: 5
Running total: 32

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(x) Universal Soldier
( ) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
() Along Came Polly
(x) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
() Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt
( ) KING KONG
Total: 6
Running total: 38

( ) A Cinderella Story
() The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Final Destination 3
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
Total: 8
Running total: 46

( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
() Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
() I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
Total: 3
Running total: 49

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
( x) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
(x) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
Total 9
Running total: 58

(x) Bad Boys
(x) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Lucky Number Seven
(x) Ocean's Eleven
() Ocean's Twelve
() Bourne Identity
() Bourne Supremecy
( ) Lone Star
(x) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
() Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George
Total: 5
Running total: 63

(x) Independence Day
(x) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
(x) Christine
(x) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
() My Bosses Daughter
() Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
Total: 7
Running total: 70

( ) Best Bet
() How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
() She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
( ) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
() Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
( ) Forrest Gump
(x) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3
Total: 5
Running total: 75

(x) X-Men
( ) X-2
( ) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Sky High
(x) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
() Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
() The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
Total: 9
Running total: 84

( ) Swimfan
(x) Miracle on 34th street
( ) Old School
(x ) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
( ) Krippendorf's Tribe
( ) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
( ) Boogeyman
(x) The 40-year-old Virgin
Total: 3
Running total: 87

( ) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
( ) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
( ) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(x) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
(x) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
(x) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total: 3
Running total: 90

() Baseketball
(x) Hostel
( ) Waiting for Guffman
(x) House of 1000 Corpses
(x ) Devils Rejects
( ) Elf
( ) Highlander
( ) Mothman Prophecies
(x) American History X
( ) Three
Total: 4
Running total: 94

( ) The Jacket
( ) Kung Fu Hustle
( ) Shaolin Soccer
( ) Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
(x) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
(x ) Shaun Of the Dead
( ) Willard
Total: 4
Running total: 98

( ) High Tension
( ) Club Dread
( ) Hulk
(x) Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
() Chronicles Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) 28 days later
(x) Orgazmo
( ) Phantasm
(x) Waterworld
Total: 5
Running total: 103

(x) Kill Bill vol 1
(x) Kill Bill vol 2
( ) Mortal Kombat
(x) Wolf Creek
( ) Kingdom of Heaven
(x) The Hills Have Eyes
( ) I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
( ) The Last House on the Left
( ) Re-Animator
( ) Army of Darkness
Total: 4
Running total: 107

(x ) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
( ) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
( ) Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total: 5
Running total: 112

(x) The Matrix
(x) The Matrix Reloaded
(x) The Matrix Revolutions
( ) Animatrix
( ) Evil Dead
( ) Evil Dead 2
(x) Team America: World Police
(x ) Red Dragon
(x) Silence of the Lambs
( x) Hannibal
Total: 7
Running total: 119

Its official!! I have no life. I watched half of the movies on this list... and this doesn't even cover the ones aren't listed.... and some of them are my favourites....
Memoirs of a Geisha
It
Karate Kid
Pearl Harbour
Memphis Belle
Underworld 1,2,3
Twilight
Stand by Me
Hostel 2
Saw 3 & 4
Hellraiser 1,2,3,4,5
The Goonies
Snakes on a plane
Night at the museum...

Ok, that enough now. But At least this is over the past 20 years I've seen some of these!! So, thats not too bad really. Maybe 20 or 30 a year, and then some of them I watch numerous times!!! Anyways, a bit of fun for the afternoon!!

Early morning walk!

Just for fun I decided to go for a walk on this lovely Sunday morning. I woke up at 7:30, and instead of wallowing in bed like I usually do, I got up off my arse and went for a 35 min walk. And I decided that I would wear my heart rate monitor just to see what sort of rates I was gonna get.

I ended up with an average heart rate of 140bpm. Top rate was 168, and that was when I was walking up a smallish hill. I am still very very unfit... so if I can get 3 or 4 walks a week, hopefully in 2 months i will begin to feel much fitter.

Unfortunately I have a sore achillies...and I'm worried that it is going to get worse the more I walk. I am wondering if it is a bi-product of being fat....so We'll see once I start to drop some kilos. I have been seeing a chiro, but think I might have to go to see someone else if it doesn't start to get better soon.

I went out for lunch yesterday, and had an entree vegetarian pasta.... and I was so proud of myself as I usually have a full serve, and I was happily full once I was finished. I met up with my best friends aswell... one of them has been overseas for the past 2.5 years, so I was awesome to see her. And my other mate had a baby 6 months, so it was great to be able to see her as a mum in action, and have a cuddle of little Jasmine.

Valentines day was a non event for me and my partner. I'm not in a very good space with him at the moment.... and its really starting ot get me down. So being able to stick to WW through the next few weeks is gonna be tough, cause I also have to make some tough decisions.

ANYWAYS.... onyto a happy Sunday (I hope!!)

Travelling OK

So after Tuesday's nasty weigh in I have jumped onto the WW wagon quite well. Have stuck to my points for the past 2 days, and have not been losing the plot at night time. And last night I even though about eating something I shouldn't, but really thought about the consequences, and didn't end up doing it! YAY me!!

I'm feeling pretty positive about everything,... and the next thing is to just get through the weekend. I think it should be OK. I have managed to go for 2 walks... and realise how unfit I am, but at least I did it!!

Today will be a good day too... and looking forward to a sleep in tomorrow. I have been reading the twilight series of books and up to the last one with about 15 pages to go.... I am so hanging to finish it tonight!!! Can't wait to see what happens.

Anyhoo, have a good day, I will be cause its Friday!!!

Quick update

So, I was brave and faced the scales last night - and they were not nice to me. I have 40kg to lose to get to my healthy weight range. I am 20kg heavier thatn the first time I did WW. Too embarassed to tell my weight - or ashamed is more like it!

The meeting was at Ingle Farm (FYI Tina!!), and I quite like the leader. She is entertaining, and quirky, and seems nice. I will make the effort each week to stay at the meeting - there seems like there are some nice people there.

I am using the weight watchers E-tools, which is great for me as I spend most of my day in front of a computer, and half my night. My main issue is going to be my night time eating, and how to overcome it!! Lots of water I think.

I think I am finally in the right headspace to do this now. I've wallowed in fatness for too long, and its time to take control.

GOALS... (meeting was about this last night)
1. Stick to tracking for this whole week - reward will be a loss on the scales!
2. Lose 10kg by 20th May - reward - new tattoo (better start saving now!!)
3. Lose 40kg total, and do this over a period of 2.5 years - reward will be healthier new me!! And maybe some new clothes.

And I'm off and running!!!

Tonight is the night

Tonight I'm going to face the dreaded scales, and go to WW. I know I've been there before and done that, but the reality is I can't do it on my own, and if I'm going to pay someone so I can stand on some scales, then maybe that will give me the shove I need.

I am really really dreading this, but at least it will keep me honest, and all I have to do is work hard, can get my arse into gear, and the rest should follow along.

Its much cooler here now, and feeling much better about it all. Its terribly sad watching all the fires in Victoria.... those poor people.

Onto some work...I'll report in tomorrow...but unlikely to give you a number....too embarassing!!

I can see the end of the tunnel!!

25 lovely degrees on Sunday!!!! I can't wait. The fact that I have Andrew's family BBQ at our house doesn't really brighten the day, but still... 25 degrees!!!

In case you haven't figured, I am over this heat. I went to the movies on Sunday to get some cool time, and all I managed to do was end up in a cinema that didn't have working airconditioning!! How crap. By the end of the movie I was sweating.

Food has been average the past few days. The worst thing was a packet of burger rings. Other than that I have been good. Going to join WW on Tuesday next week. Its a new meeting where I have't been before, so hopefully will be a good one.

Off to the dentist tonight for a clean, but I have really sensitive teeth, so need to have an anesthetic...so will have a numb mouth for quite a while!!! I am learing to overcome my fear of the dentist... slowly.