Time for an update

Well the weight loss has slowed since my last post, but I have lost 20kg now. Just writing that figure down astounds me, and the best thing about it is that I have done it on my own! So it can happen if you really want it to.

The trip to Sydney was wonderful, and Dave and I had such a lovely time. Trip to the Flinder's ranges was also wonderful, aside from sprqaining the other ankle. I tell ya, it has not been a good year for me and my feet. 2 sprained ankles in 2 months. I was NOT a happy lady when I did that. So we didn't even get to go for a walk at Wilpena... I was PISSED RIGHT OFF. But I didn't let it ruin the weekend, and we ended up spending the Sunday 4WD'ing and checking out some beautiful places and views.This pic was taken on the Sunday and is my favourite... it looks like a painting. It was so beauitful up here. Rawnsley's Bluff... where we were supposed to walk to - I think this is the closest I will get for a while... its gonna be about a year before I can get back to thsi place and walk up there.

My love of trees get the better of me sometimes and I just had to have a look inside... of course I manged to sqeeze inside it, and give it a hug :-)

So the Flinders trip was great... it was very green up here which is very unsual for the middle of South Australia. I can't wait to go back, and this trip has just confirmed my love for the Australian outback, and how happy I am when I am out in the country.

Things with Dave are going very well... it think I have found 'THE ONE'. You know, that person that you are just meant to be with. I am so happy that I start to wonder whether positive Karma has finally come my way after all the years of crap with my ex. Love is a wonderful thing, and I have never felt so content.

We are heading to Perth in a few weeks for a small holiday for 4 days, and I am really in need of the break. Work has been pretty stressful for the past few months, so am looking forward to just having some time out - Christmas holidays is going to be such a relief this year - almost 2 weeks away... 2 weeks to re-energise. And then at the end of January I'll have been at my work for 10 years!! Long Service leave!! YAY! I don't get 10 weeks off, but get paid out with the option of taking some time... so Dave and I are probably going to go away bush somewhere I think for a few weeks.

Soo all in all life is travelling pretty well. As long as I stop spraining ankles I'll be fine!! xxx

16kg and shrinking!

I can't belive that I have lost 16.3 kilos since February. And the weight is just falling off. I eat well, but have not done much exercise lately because I sprained my ankle on a bush walk 4 weeks ago. But the weight is still coming off.

I think being happy and content in life is making a huge difference, and I am very determined to get back down to the 85-88 kilos I used to be. Only 25kg to go now! I went to Melb on the weekend to visit my friend, and went and did some clothes shopping - I am finally back into an XL. It was fantastic to put on XXL and go 'no this is too big' and have to go to an XL.

In my last post I mentioned my new friend Dave, well things have progressed rather well with him, and I can now safely call him my 'boyfriend'. :) I am so amazingly happy with him... he is super smart, likes to talk, and likes to make me talk and think. He listens to me, and actaully has an opinion about things, and loves to ask questions. My brain is getting so stimulated it is AWESOME!!! We are off for a brief trip to Sydney in a few weeks, and then off to the Flinder's ranges in October for bushwalking and camping. Looking forward to it all so much!!

Since I sprained my ankle we haven't really done any walking, so finally this weekend, we are planning to get back inot the bush and go for a walk. I am so excited about it... I have missed it so much!!

So all in all things are going very well in my life at the moment. Aside from mum being sick that is... but I am trying not to let that get to me too much... cause it just brings me down. I still visit her and dad once a week minimum, so at least I am getting to spend time with her.

Life is good... !!

10% - I ROCK!!!

Today I reached Milestone number 1.... I have lost 10% of my body weight since February. That makes it 12.6kg total. I am so so proud of myself, and you know what, I have done it all on my own! No Weight Watchers, no Jenny Craig, no Meal replacements... Just pure willpower and determination. And a lot of damn hard work at the gym and out walking. Oh and eating really really well.

I am so so happy at the moment! Things are travelling so well in my life. I am dropping the kilos, I am happy at work, and I have met a wonderful man. He is only a friend at the moment, and I hope for something more, but I'm just going go with the flow and see how things travel with him. If it doesn't happen, then I'll be disappointed, but I will have made a wonderful new friend.

I have been doing a bit of hiking in the hills and loving every minute of it. Have been going to the gym 2 or 3 times a week, and am loving having a personal trainer. I love feeling sore for a few days after I have seen him... cause it makes me remember how hard I have worked.

My life has changed hugely since breaking up with Andrew. I feel so alive and in control, and doing the things I want to do. I am achieving my weighloss goals, and becomming so much fitter and stronger. I am doing a 12km fun run/walk in September, and I think I will achieve that easily. Next year in Oct I want to do a 100km walk in a 24hr period.... This is my big exercise goal, and I plan to train hard for it over the next 12 months. And my new friend Dave is keen to do it with me.

So the next few months are filled with more exercise and good eating, 2 trips to Melbourne, and trip to the Flinders Ranges (with Dave :-) ), and then a trip to Perth in Nov. I think I will need the Christmas holidays to rest!!

And you know what I think is one of the key things to my weight loss... I am HAPPY. Sure I have stresses in my life, but I am learning not to let them get to me like I used to. Mum has been in hospital for 5 weeks, and as sad and stressful as that is, I have not let it bring me down. I go to the gym or for a walk and just work away the worries. And having a new friend in my life certainly helps too.

So Leanne's world is OK at the moment...

Still here!

I haven't had the inclination to post since my last one. Life has been very up and down, but am pleased to be riding on an UP wave at the moment!!

I have spent a bit of time thinking about life in general, and spent a day by myself at a town along the coat to try to get my head around things. Since doing that I have been feeling so much better, and so much happier with life. I am moving forward, and although I still feel down when I think about Andrew sometimes, on the whole I am a lot better.

I have been actively losing weight, and have lost 7.5kg since the beginning of March. Its not HEAPS, but its a good start,a nd I am determined to drop a lot more weight over the next 18 months. I'm really pissed I let myself become so big, but the main thing is I'm doing something about it now. I joined a gym, and have a personal trainer, so I am really getting some good exercise and strength training in. I still walk 2 times a week, and the most amazing thing was this week I needed to go for a walk on Monday cause I hadn't been for 4 days. It wasn't a 'i want' to go, it was a 'my body needs' to go for a walk... and thats a fantastic way to feel! its so good to be getting active again, and actually starting to feel good about myself!!

And the other fun and exciting thing I have been doing is playing around with Intenet dating with Oasis Active. I have been having a ball!! I have been talking to lots of guys, and have physically met one of them, and am planning to meet up with him again this weekend. And I have another one that is keen to meet up with me next week. So this has been a fantastic distraction, and a way to talk to lots of different men without having to go out and do the pub thing, or trying to work up the courage to talk to people in social settings.

And finally I have been doing some things on my own, and have been learning to enjoy my own company. If you can't do that, then I think a person has problems. I am going away to Renmark this weekend, and am going to go up in a hot air balloon weather permitting. And I'm doing this on my own. Admittedly I'm meeeting up with someone on the sat night to enjoy the festivities, but Sunday morning is my time to enjoy life, and do the things I want to do. And I'm finally going to meet up with Froggy on Sunday which I am really looking forward to!!

So all in all things are going OK in the world of Leanne. Feeling much happier, and more alive than what I have for a few years. And things can only get better from now on!!

4 weeks on

So its been 4 weeks since we split, and I have really not coped very well at all on some days. Other days I have been OK, and managed keep it together. Today and tomorrow are likely to be sad, and I'm certainly feeling that this morning. So so flat.

I got the house & mortgage all organised, and settlement is tomorrow. So I will be in debt up to my eyeballs and beyond, but the house will be mine and completely in my name. So tomorrow for me really is the finish of it all. There will be no ties to Andrew with the house, except for the few things he still has around.

I really understand the concept of a broken heart, but am thankful we can remain friends. Andrew and I spent a couple of days at the V8 racing a few weeks ago, and that was really good. We both had a great weekend, and got along quite well.

I guess my thing is that I'm just so so angry that we couldn't make it work, and now I'm almost 34 and single again. And I think being angry is what makes me upset, and then my head just starts thinking all sorts of things, and then I'm going round and round in circles.

I KNOW thats its best we are not together, and I KNOW that if we move back in together that things will go back to how they were, so why do I get so sad? Cause I'm lonely. I honestly thought I'd cope being on my own in my house, but the reality is that I'm not coping very well at all. My best friend is in Melb, my other one lives too far away and has a bub so can't come over at night, and I don't have too many other friends who can come over or I can go visit. Facebook is my best mate at the moment as it keeps me occupied.

I'm a real introvert, so the whole I idea of going out on my own and meeting people just scares the crap outa me. I admire Chris H, who seems to be able to natter to anyone, and loves to meet new people - I'm just so not like that.

I guess I just have to come outa my shell and try harder.... But I'm not sure if I'm ready yet? Who knows. I just feel a little lost at the moment, and look forward to feeling happier sooner rather than later. Breaking up is hard to do - and this would have to be ther worst one I've been through.

Sad Ending - but new beginning?

Andrew and I broke up this week, and it broke my heart to have to do it. But things have not been too good for a while, and I couldn't keep living in this unhappy relationship. I wish so bad that we didn't have to end it, but he couldn't change, and neither could I, so it was just better to break up. 4.5 years of being together means a sad breakup.

He moved out today, and my brother and I helped him. We have been nice to each other, no nastiness.... and this has made the whole break up easier to deal with. Once you start being nasty to each other, then things go downhill real quick.

I get to keep the house, and have to sort out everything this week with regards to the mortgage, and title. I think everything will be Ok with that, as long as people don't keep talking into Andrew's ear. I just wanted it all softer ASAP.

So I'm feeling a bit down at the moment, and think I will for a while. I don't hate Andrew and the that can make it harder to move forward, but I'll just have to do my best. At least I will be able to re-focus on my weight loss now.... living on my own will make things much easier.

Bling & Stuff

Its been a few weeks sice I posted... but its been kinda busy.

I survived my trip to China. I got all the work done I was meant to, and then spent about 6 hours hanging in hong kong airport waiting for my flight on the Tuesday... so I bought myself some "Tiffany & Co" bling. This is called a grafitti squiggle, and it suits be perfectly!!! I were it on a chain around my neck, and looks cool. Very me.

Since the trip was mostly work, I didn't do much other stuff, and cause my back was misbehaving, it was hard to do much. I ended up getting seat upgrade to Premium economy on the way home, and that made for a nicer trip... not so squashy! I didn't get much sleep so was rather tired when I finally got home on the Wednesday.

And things have just been busy since getting home. I had my girlfriends over last sat night night for a dinner and a sleep over which was great, we had fun night with girly talk and just enjoying each others company. I love my girls mel and Bec.

And in other news I have gotten out of hospital today...

Such an attractive look!! Had another op on my nose to try to help my breathing. Since my nose job 2.5years ago, things haven't been right, so I went to a different doc, and he decided that there were some unusual things happening in my nose that was causing it to get blocked at night time. So off I want for my op... and now I'm home again. I'm not too sore at the moment, but the drugs help with that :). I have the next few days off work, and go back on the Wed next week. Just enought time to relax and heal up.

The only real downer was when the anesthetist exclaimed I was VERY BIG, and said this about 4 times....and made it seem like it was going to be dangerous.... so I ended up in tears heading into the op...but it all worked out Ok, and I'm safely home.

So we all know what this means...Leanne really needs to pull her finger out and lose these damn kilos.